Coping…or not

I have been asked a time or two how I cope with my mental health, how I managed to carry on as others do. Part of it is that I am fortunate enough to be high-functioning despite everything. Another part is that I am strict with myself and lean towards perfectionist behaviours, and thus, do not allow myself to live my life any differently than a person with a well-balanced mind (some of this is ego, I think; I refuse to let others out-perform me). The third part is that I’m not coping. Living the way I do does not allow me the time to properly acknowledge my problems, because I am simply too busy struggling through the day, and then too tired from the struggle to care.

So, that is how I cope, through ambivalence…but I do not recommend this method, it certainly isn’t helping me. I am not surviving the day, coming out the other end having accomplished something. I am just existing throughout the day.

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  1. Depression is different for everyone but there are 2 commonalities that I have noticed.
    1) It robs us of hope
    2) It sucks up our energy

    This is a really good song by Third Day. I hope it encourages you

    I have an encouragement blog you might want to visit. You can read my personal story by going to CATEGORY and scrolling down to MY BRAIN TUMOR STORY
    http://weepingintodancing.wordpress.com/

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  2. Hi, just found your blog. I just read this post, and it reminds me a lot of me. I appear to function, but really it’s just existing. I hope things improve for you, good luck xx

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