Something to Live For

Lately I’ve had this pervasive thought. It is this: I have nothing to live for.

It’s not necessarily true. I have family, and I have friends. I even have school. It seems like that is enough for many people.

I’m not sure if it’s enough for me. I don’t see much of my family or my friends. Other than my brother, nobody is near by. School is just school. I don’t love what I currently study enough for it to emotionally sustain me.

I don’t have a significant other. I don’t have friends/family/peers (other than the aforementioned brother) that often. I don’t even have a pet.

It makes it harder to get up in the morning. It makes it harder to keep going.

It’s not easy for me to motivate myself to go on for myself. Yet, I think that’s what I need to be able to do.

So this is the plan: I’ll keep going. I’ll keep going until I find something to keep me going or until I’m good at going on for myself (practice makes perfect). Eventually, I think I’ll come across something to live for.

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  1. lifeofmiblog

     /  March 25, 2015

    I think that’s a common problem and you don’t have to be alone to have it. I have people and things but that same thought persists. I think it is because when you have someone or something, you start to believe that you don’t deserve them/it and they would be better off without you because all you ever do is hurt them or bring them grief!
    I think it is the sickness and the change of circumstances wont change it much….sorry, don’t mean to be negative…

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    • You make a good point. I’ve definitely felt that way even when in a better situation. I might have to make a Part II to this post. Do you mind if I quote your comment?

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      • lifeofmiblog

         /  March 26, 2015

        No problem…if you think I am worth quoting.

  2. Looks very positivity in this article. This types of blog surely help people who suffer from depression. Best of luck for future post.

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